Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Wanting to Live by myself to know myself (Asking for Your Help )

Hi Everyone,

Its been awhile been trying to pull My Life together after all of this Hell!!!!

Never thought I would be the last of My Family still Living without them :( and now trying to find My way in this World is both hard and scary at the same time.
Wished I had someone to turn to instead of having to Live with other People Mainly Men.
Want to live by myself to get to know myself but can't afford that right now and wished I had some People to care about Me to help Me get on my feet.

My Daughter Lives in Michigan she is newly wed and I would Love to have My Own Place close to her as she is all I have left and two other Grown Children which are Married and Living there Life's :) so I am asking anyone that has been following My Story to reach out and help Me to get My own place and let me get over this Gut wrenching Nightmare and get to know who I am???

You can reach me at or Facebook Debbie Lynn Hall ( Laforest) I have went thru Life always Married and since My Hubby died in My Arms and the fatal fire that claimed the rest of My Family then finding out My Missing Mother was Murdered :( I am ready to throw the towel in:( I kow I should be stronger then that!!!!

But sick of having to be with a Man to have a place to stay and I refuse to do it again!!!
Would Love to Live by Myself to finish My Book and have peace and quiet without having to feel obligated to be someones Wife or Girlfriend!! if this is what Life is offering I would rather join My Family:(:(

So Please if You can help Me get on My Feet and move into My own place get ahold of Me.

Thank You.

Sincerely Debbie Hall. 

Friday, March 15, 2013

This is my true life story from the start, my story needs to be told to heal be advice of my counselor but I do believe it's to late for me but this just might help some just even one person that thinks they can't go on after all the hell you might have went threw or are going threw it now so here it goes,

my mom met my Daddy and fell head over heals in love they were married and so happy then they wanted to have a baby and they tried and tried with no luck then they went to the doctors and they told my parents they could never have children and both of my parents were very religous and my mom told the doctor that God can work miracles and they would not give up and after praying for six years to no surprze to my parents yes my mom was pregnant .

Things were great for awhile then when I was six months old my mother asked my Daddy for a divorce and he wasn't shocked becuase she was so involved with me she had no time for my Father and to say the least it broke his heart, so they were divorced  and my mom starting working in a bar to make money and she met Roger and they become very close friends and then they were married within two months so this was more then heart breaking to my father but they remained close because of me and also because they really still cared about each other, well this was a total life change for my mom and I, I can remember back to 3 years old and wasn't allowed no friends over our house which was a big huge mansion but it was like a jail to me and what was to come next when I was nine was like living hell and not just the beatings he use to give me and I was told if I told if I told my mom he would hurt her and everyone that knew this man knew he meant business and was afraid of this man and then he would watch me at night when my mom would go to work and what he would do is come in my room to tuck me in and that wasn't like him, First he started kissing me on the cheek then the next time it was on the mouth and then the next time he said I am your Daddy too and I want to show you love my daughter and he said I am gonna lay next to you until you fall asleep so lay your head down on my shoulder and out of fear of making him mad I did and I felt his hand going down my legs and he said your legs are very soft and your gonna be a beautiful woman and when you grow up and get married your husband will want you to make him happy and my dream was to get married to a prince yes that's the fantasy I had and I think it was my escape from this mean man and believe me his punishments were very bad, so he said he would teach me on how to keep my prince happy and the only reason I am brave enough to tell this is because I have carried this in too long and my family don't know this part but they do know the big part of what he was involved in which that will come later in my story, but he would come in my room every nite my Mother was at work and feel down my legs to between my legs and he started with just one finger wow this is so embarrassing but then he would insert one finger into my vagina and it hurt so bad and the more I cried the more he got mad and said how are you gonna be a woman when you are acting like a baby I said I am nine I am not a woman so we had a attic and it was my play room during the day well he sent me up there and shut all the lights out and made me stay up there but before he would send me up there he would have us watch a really scarey movie with him before he would tell me I was going in the attic and then beat my ass then send me up there and he told me maybe next time you will stop being a big baby when I am trying to show you love and I wanted to tell my mom so bad but he said he would hurt my mom (tears) so not only was I not allowed friends over and never understood why but this man was trying to make a woman out of me at nine years old, he was a truck driver and when he would go away for weeks at a time I knew we were safe at least until he got back home, need a break from this for now will continue tomorrow and thank you to my friends that are reading this and replying and being there for me, Hugs Deb.